is becoming a teacher just a hopeful dream, or a true reality?

Lately, it feels like everything and anything  has gone completely wrong for the most part. Stockton is one of those issues. It just seems like they do not have big enough programs for the amount of students they admit in at a time. The struggle to get classes are crazy, and the scheduled times are so time consuming. The teacher education program is over filled, and the chance of getting into a class that is needed is slim like 1:100. The preceptor can put you on a waitlist, but I have been there and it is not very promiseing. This has become a huge discouragement so far during my college year. I tried to take an alternative route and fill in some of the extra courses that are required, but I do not want to take the easy way out of everything because when the time comes and I am able to get into what I need, the work load could be to much possibly. I also looked into speech pathology classes for some of the special ed requirements, but that was no help either considering most of them were night time classes and I need to hold a job while I am in school.  Sometimes I wonder if this is ever going to be reality. Am i ever going to get on the right track? It is a constant question, and very frustrating. I have considered transferring to maybe rowan, but it seems like  I wouldn't get that far either in that idea. I would hate to start over, and have another new adjustment period where I just feel uncomfortable and unsure of things. I would hope that this would become a true reality someday, but I just feel like I am waisting my time hoping. I am all out of ideas, and Stockton is not very helpful. My positive incentives, are becoming negative ones quickly. It is time for a change. More to come :)

Outline on career

Throughout my blog, I have came up with alot of different ideas of how I would like my career and future to come out. I mentioned speech, special education students, guidence councelor, k-8 teacher, and I am sure there are many more to come. I feel that all these ideas co-inside with one another because they are all based on the education field. I think that while I am a younger teacher, I would like to work with the speech and special education field because I will have more patience and energy to give them all the time they need for understanding. Probably around the time I have a family, I will switch to k-8 because then I will be on a almost set time schedule, and will be able to work it around the family time. Maybe once I am older, I will go into the guidence councelor field because I would be older, and had enough time to learn the ins and outs of the school system. I understand that being a teacher is a 24-7 job and will consist of talking to parents through email, telephone, or parent confrence at different hours of the day besides the regular work day. The reason for my outline is because I want to be able to have a family as well and I do not think I will be able to conquer it all. So in order to do everything that I wanted to, I have to do it in a time line. I think that if I plan everything out accordingly, I will be just fine with my future.

Ideas of how I want my classroom to be set up

Well because I decided to teach k-8, I want my classroom to be creative and incentive. I want to make it very colorful and bright to keep the kids wide awake. Of course, their will be an apple on my desk because every teacher I had growing up always had an apple on their desk. To me it is like the apple is the symbol of the teacher with knowledge  ready to share. I want to have up incentives like student of the month, and have them write about why they feel they are student of the month, and give ideas to other students on how they could be the next candidate. They will have to read educational stuff, and do homework but I also want them to read one book or article a week that they are interested in to keep them positive about schooling. I remember when I was little reading books that I hated, and never had a taste for and always complaining that I wanted to ready Judy Bloom instead. I want their projects to be a thought out process with numerous steps to keep their brain working instead of an easy one task project. They need to expand their horizons. I would probably also do a star chart for the good days with the children when they use manner and respect to each other, and hand out a suprise at the end to the winner. I have so many ideas and the list just keeps going on and on. It feels good to have an idea on how you want things to go and plan them out, the only thing is working your way up to where you want to be. I feel like getting to this point will be a huge task. I am an impatient person. When i want something I have to have it. I wish I could have it now. more to come :)

K-8 ?!?!?!

After thinking my blogs through, I've decided to eliminate through grades and figure out which grade to teach that would be best for me. So I've decided that I want to work with little kids instead of older kids. Even though I feel that conversation is better with older students, I feel that younger students need a teacher more than the older kids. They also appreciate you more than an older student. They also respect you the way they should. I want to be able to craft and do fun learning activities with the kids. I feel that incentives are the best route for a teacher to take when trying to educate little ones. I want to have student of the month, and a colorful classroom. I want flowers, and positive incentives around to keep the students in good moods. I also want to have a class pet, maybe a bunny or fish. Teaching elementary i feel will be more pleasing to me than teaching high school. Even though high school is basically the same thing just in a mature concept, I feel it is not appreciative.  I honestly would love to teach kindergarden or 1st grade because I love working with little kids. I feel that it is such a great opportunity to show them the healthy and right way of life. Also to point them in the right direction, and teach them manners and respect. I want them to have a bright future, and a something to look forward too.  Even if i get bored of teaching little kids, I will have a degree to teach middle school as well. So if i decide that I want to hold a real conversation, I can always change grades. Talking about this makes me so happy. It really is such a great passion to have, especially if someone adores children like I do. More later :)

Maybe Extending a Teaching Career into A guidence Councelor Career.

So lately, I have been experiencing alot of personal problems. My parents are about to get a divorce, and I find this emotional situation starting to damper on my school work. It is not happening purposely but instead of my main focus on school, it has been on what is going on at home. The other day I recieved the phone call that this would be happening. I am not a fan of change. Of course anyone would not want news like that because your family is your family and nobody wants their family to be broken up. So I had to choose where I am going to live, but this put a tamper on my relationship with my parents because of course I could only pick one main house. I am 19, and distraught... which brings me too what if I was younger. What effect would this have on me as a child. If my school work is being delayed now, what would of happened if I was younger? Then I thought about maybe taking my career into teaching, but getting a degree where I can work with speech kids and their mentality. Also I could would with kids with emotion issues during their hard times. Many kids go through a divorce at young ages, and of course there is always side effects that come along with it. I know it sounds like I want to do it all, but I really just want to help make a change or better a childs life. If they struggle from a health issue, emotional issue, or just having a bad day. Everyday something impacts our mood. Either your happy to mad, or mad to sad. Many children experience death, divorce, and other major issues in their life. Maybe I could help them, and point them in a positive direction. I'm on a path to figuring out what I want to do, the only issue is when am I going to be 100 percent sure? I guess I'll be thinking about this more until something else comes up. More later